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July 18

update

Took a little break from it all, husband had some health issues and went on vacation.  I am back.  I am up in weight a bit but not giving up.  WI this week and last week at WW was 188.2. I am back in control and ready to start losing again. 
June 05

update...

Been away from Weight Watchers for a couple of weeks, found my way back today and I am up 4.4.  It has been a busy few weeks and have had a lot going on.   Looking forward to refocusing on my goals and moving toward them.  Going to start walking again... going to treat myself to a mani and pedi... going to get foods that are healthy for me. ... going to play at the park with my girls...swim with my girls.
I am going to enjoy my time off. I will make the most of every moment I have to spend with my girls & spend focusing on me. 
May 30

Wake up call

Ok so today on my way home from work I started getting a migraine so I took two Excedrin for Migraine like I always do to get rid of the headache before it really kicks in.  5 minutes later I feel my nose running and I wipe my nose to find that I am bleeding heavily out of both nostirls.  My whole body starts shaking and and feel light headed and decide to drive to the nearest walk in clinic.  Call my husband and tell him to leave work to met me there because I am scared and don't know what is going on.   I go in and they find that my blood pressure is 211/120!!!!  They have me lay there and ask me all sorts of questions does anyone in the family have cancer? does anyone have heart disease?  has anyone ever had a brain annarisim?  I am laying there hoping to god I am not dying and trying to keep it together in front of my 5 year old that I have with me.  They decide to take a blood draw to "check levels" and then tell me to RELAX and that they would recheck my BP in about 5 min. Are you freaking kidding me RELAX.  So then my husband shows up and I have him take Peyton out of the room to play.  I hear the Dr. talking with someone else in the hall way and telling them if my BP does not go down dramatically they should admit me to the ER. So Dr. comes back in and takes blood sample and tells me to RELAX and that my BP has to go down or I will need to be admitted to hospital.  Ok now my finger is killing me and I am imagining that I am dying right there. RELAX LOL!! Go figure I get layed off today (for the summer) my insurance is expiring tomorrow and I am in there with god knows what happening to me.  They leave and I am in there for what seems forever.  My nose finally stops bleeding.  They come back and take my BP and it is now 140/70.  Then they leave.  Dr. comes back in and says blood tests are normal and everything seems ok and BP is at a level she is now comfortable with.  Dr. explains to me she believes that because I normally have borderline high BP and that Excedrin is Asprin based it caused the bleeding and then when I saw the bleeding I basically freaked out and caused my BP to sky rocket.  So as of tomorrow I have no medical and am hoping she is right.    She is still concerned that my body was able to sky rocket that high so I may need to be perscribed something  for the migraines and may need BP meds. 

What an eye opener that is!!! I want to be around for my girls for a very very long time and I need to get serious about taking care of me!! 

May 16

A fine balance

I am working towards finding a balance in this journey.  Not being soo rough on myself and not being so strict on what I can and can not eat or how much I should be working out.  I relaxed a bit this week, didn't count points, didnt officially workout however ate within reason and went on bike rides with the family.  I gave myself a hard time relaxing my standards a bit.  I gave myself a really hard time for eating food that was not the "best" for me.  I lost focus that I was still eating better then I use to, and I was still moving more then I use to I was just now having fun doing it.  I WI at home this morning and was expecting a gain of a lb or two but really was in hope that I would just  break even and just maintain.  @ home this morning I WI at 178.  I lost .8 I am happy for that loss and I am begining to learn that a fine balance is the key to my weightloss. 
 
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2-23

From my myspace blog... Wed.

Not sure why this is so hard right now.  I have been doing soo good for so long. The past week has just been rough.  I have not been counting points, I have not been exercising or walking.  I have been tired, stressed, over whellmed and just down.  I have had a lot to do this week but that is no excuse to not treat myself the way that I should be. I have turned to food for comfort again.  Its a pattern I thought I have broken but apparently its too easy to slip back into that way of life.  Today I actually went to Mc Donalds with my daughter and I ordered two happy meals the plan was one for each of my daughters well my oldest was at tutoring and I ended up eating her meal.  It was terrible, it didn't taste good, it was not worth it and I had to go get my daughter more food when I picked her up.  I knew what I was doing but not sure why. It had actually been over 6 months since I have had that CRAP! I have really relaxed on taking care of me this week.  I was doing so good, maybe I was putting too much pressure on myself.  I was disapointed the scale was not moving, or moving too slow.  Well I lost .2 last week.  I guess I decided "what is the point of working so hard".  But I know I need to stick with it. I need to re focus and snap out of this.  I feel sick now.  The food I ate was not good for me it drains my body, it does not give me energy.  Why do I feel the need to destroy what I am doing?!?!  I need to get up and move forward.  I know my goals and I need to keep moving toward them.  NOW is a new moment to make the choice I deserve. I will treat myself with respect, I will give my body and my mind time to reflect, relax and give it the nutrition and exercise it needs to function to its fullest potential.  Food is fuel for my body and nothing more.....
Update....Thurs.
The food I ate actually made me ill last night. I had the worse stomache probs in a long long time. My body truely has changed and is not use to that CRAP anymore. Getting sick from the food was a wake up call. Why feed myself something so bad for me that it actually makes me sick. Not worth it!!!
May 15

I've Started to Realize....

It really doesnt matter what those around me think of me or wish for me...what really matters is that I am happy about who I AM and that I am happy with my life and my decisions...I do not need to make others happy...that is not my job...If someone has an issue with me it really IS NOT my problem but one that that person has with themself...I have been learning and growing and I will not sacrifice WHO I AM and WHO  I WANT  TO BE for anyone.  As I grow I may grow apart from some people I care about...I hope that they can learn and grow as well and come along on the journey but my success is not determined by anyone else...just me.  I determine who I am and how to live my life.  I determine MY GOALS...MY DREAMS.
May 10

My Week in Review

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Last weekend I went to Seattle's Camp Carter. Personal Trainer Carter Hays from Tennessee (he trained "The Cowboy" David Griffen from the Biggest Loser) flew into Seattle to kick mine and a few others butts and teach us how to work out. We learned about nutrition and exercise, had an hour personal training session in the morning which included squats, lundges, and pushups with and without weights. After the morning workout he put is through a 4 minute workout outside. The whole AM workout burned over 700 calories!!! We then went to lunch at Olive Garden where I chose to have salad and soup with one breadstick. We returned to the hotel where we asked questions about nutrition and exercise and then went for our afternoon workout. More squats, lundges and pushups and more weights this workout was only 1/2 hr long but burned over 400 calories!!! The experience was amazing and I learned alot from Carter and am really glad he was able to come out meet with us. I felt great on Sat. when I left for home my legs were a bit numb and felt like Jello and would give out a bit when I went downstairs but there was no pain. That is until Sun. morning!!! I was sore from head to toe!! I took 2 ibprofin and that took the edge off. I noticed I felt better if I kept moving so I went for a walk with my dogs and my husband and I decided to clean out the garage. Sunday morning was the worse by far. It hurt to go up and down stairs!! I felt like sliding down the stairs. It hurt to sit it hurt to stand heck it hurt to do nothing. Sunday was bad. Monday I was still slightly sore but feeling much better. However people at work kept asking me what was wrong and that I looked sore, lol. I was walking pretty straight leged my muscles were tight. Monday after work I went to the gym and soaked in the hot tub and hung out in the sauna. By Wed. I felt "normal" however my weight on the scale had said I had gone up 4 lbs!!! I had been really good at watching my food and staying in my point range so I knew I was still retaining water. Wed and Thurs the school I worked at took a field trip to the zoo and I came with and chased preschoolers around the zoo for 4 hours each day. As of yesterday my weight finally returned to normal and I weighed in a WW at 178.8 down .2 lbs. I was very active this week & I know I did my body good but I really wish I would have seen a larger loss at the scale then .2 It is possible that I am still recovering from last weekend I suppose. Camp Carter opened my eyes to a new way of working out. A way to workout when I do not have exercise equip avail. to me. For a Camp Carter workout no major equip. is needed. The workout consisted of 1 free weight and myself and I burned over 1100 calories in a day and I felt it! It hurt but is was a good hurt of my muscles and my body waking up!! I plan on flying to Tennesse in Sept for the Nashville Camp Carter Event on Sept 19, 20 and 21st.
This week my husband and I also decided to buy new bikes for the whole family and we went on our very first bike ride together last night!!! We rode two miles to a duck pond near our home and then started back when my youngest daughters bike broke!! The chain came off. So my husband rode double time back to the house while I walked back pulling my bike and my daughters bike. About 2/3 of the way back my husband showed up with the car and picked up my daughter and her bike and I rode the remainder of the way with my oldest daughter. Which she by the way is amazing!!! She learned to ride her bike in the matter of 1 hr just practicing over and over again on the sidewalk in front of our home!!! I had a great week and I feel amazing, I have a lot of energy and the sun is out today and I am looking forward to taking another bike ride with my girls. I suppose it doesn't matter what the number on the scale is if I feel great and if I am proud of myself and what I am doing for myself and for my family. I am not the only one making changes now. Now my whole family is involved and my whole family is getting healthy and having fun at the same time. Hope you all have a great week and enjoy the ones you love. XOXO
April 26

Yeah out of the 180's!

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Whoo Hoo!!! Out of the 180's... very very close to 30 lbs down. I WILL be there next week. Going to go celebrate my loss this week by treating myself to a manicure and pedicure.
April 22

Finally

Today I weighed in at WW and I weiged in at 182.2.  I am officially down 25.4 since I restarted in November.  I celebrated at my meeting by receiving my 25 lb weight for my keychain and I also received my "stay and succeed" trinket for my keychain.  Now my next goal is to get out of the 180's!!!
April 15

Night....Tired

Hey just wanted to update you all before I head off to bed.
I went to the Family Circuit class and the girls loved it. 
It was fun and time flew by. 
The girls seemed to have fun but did complain that they were tired after the class. 
 I am looking forward to the next one, we will be inviting my husband along. 
 
WTG Allie!!!
 She just looked amazing!!!!
 And way to go to my friends Gayle, Stephanie and Beth
who attended the BL live results show and ended up on TV!!!
U all looked amazing!!! 
 
UP DATE ON ME:
 
I Weighed in this morning and I was 184. 
I gained .6 since my last WW meeting over 2 weeks ago. 
 I am disapointed in the gain however I am proud of myself for finding my way back to the meeting!!

Time to refocus

I need to refocus....
 
I am going to be very focused on journaling and staying in my points this week 
also I need to get up in the morning so I can go work out.
I have been lazy this week, sleeping in and  I have not made it to the gym :(
Last week I had a migrane for 3 days and it got me off schedule. 
So today is the day I am starting again.
I am taking a "Family Circuit" class with my girls today and they are looking forward to it!  
I am going to break the plateau that I am at and I WILL reach 25 lbs gone.
My next big goal would be to get out of the 180's!!
When I do that I am going to treat myself to a mani and pedi!!
 
 
Cant wait for the BL finale tonight I am sooo excited!
I am excited to see all the changes and also to see all the MPMU online couples that are there!!!
Go Gail, Stephanie & Beth!!!!
April 02

I lived!!!

I went to go work out this morning like I do every morning.  I typically go to the gym and do 30 min cardio on the elipt and then do dry or wet sauna and swim for a few minutes.  Well this morning instead of doing the 30 min cardio on the eliptical I decided to try out the curcuit class that I normally watch while I work out.  So I jumped in there and did curcuit for 1 hr and I lived. I survived!! and I actually liked it.  The class went very quickly and I got a great workout.  I am so proud of myself for getting off the side lines and particapating in the class.  Open-mouthed After the class I relaxed in the steam room for 10 min. What a great morning!!
February 28

Down 22 :)

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Whoo Hoo Down 22 :) I have started doing 30 min cardio every morning and continue to walk my dogs.  I am also still going to curves M,W,F.  Doing pretty good.  And when I am upset, tired, sad or stressed I have been choosing to walk or work out instead of eat!!!

February 24

Progress Pics

I took some progress pics in the same clothing as my 9.8 lbs down pics and although there is not a huge difference I can tell the clothing fit better now.  The shirt actually comes all the way down!! In my 9 lb down pic my shirt would not come all the way down on the sides and now it does :) Cant wait until I take the same pic when I am 30 down :) Pics in my progress pic's album.